Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Uninspired

I went through a period a couple of months ago where I was very inspired every single minute of every day.  I was constantly writing or jotting down ideas and I felt so creative.

Right now, it feels like the well has run dry.  I went from writing daily to writing a few times a week.  And it’s not enough for me.  

I feel like my muse has abandoned me and I’m not sure how to bring her back.  Maybe I’m not getting outdoors enough - sunshine always does me a world of good and makes me feel like I can do anything.

Sometimes I think that maybe I’m not as good a writer as I thought I was.  Like maybe I have been pretending to be good and I’m really not. An imposter. A poser.  In the absence of my muse, the insecurity and self-doubts begin to creep back in.  The longer they are present, the further away inspiration seems and the longer it stays away.

I’m getting out and doing more and I thought that would help to give me something to write about but so far it hasn’t.  Not really.  I’m just writing about how I don’t know what to write and my lack of creativity.  

I miss the feeling of being creative all the time.  I need that feeling back. I miss my muse the way one would miss someone they love. It's sad and it makes me want to stop writing. But I can't because it's such a huge part of me. So...what to do??  



Smiling on the inside -


~V
 

2 comments:

  1. I can completely relate to this feeling! My life is all about creativity and writing, but that doesn't mean I'm always in the mood for it. I reckon probably every writer on the planet has sometimes blogged or journaled (or chiseled onto a slab of rock) about how pitiful they felt to only be writing about how they don't feel like writing. LOL!

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  2. I'm happy to know that I'm in good company!!

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