Observances

I had the good fortune to be able to have the day off this past Friday.  I was able to sit in a coffee shop for much of my day and work on a special writing project that I am super excited about.  It was a great day for people watching!  I got to see people go in at various times of the day to study, have meetings, working on special projects (like me!), and just go in to sit and relax with a newspaper and cup of coffee.  I loved the relaxed atmosphere.  It was something I would enjoy doing every day.  I'm not sure if it was the location or the chai tea latte or doing something that I love but it was a wonderful day.  Working for myself was great...except that I don't get paid for it (yet)!

Fast forward to work today.  It's amazing (and not in a good way) how completely opposite the feeling is when I work my "day job".  The silver lining is that I got to work from my friend's home but we had an internet connectivity issue that effected our ability to do our jobs (although at the time, we didn't know that it was a wifi issue because we got no assistance from any of the managers on the job).  Dealing with "management" at the day job was frustrating to say the least.  Long story short, things did not go well and "management" made me feel that I was imagining the problem and treated me in a very demeaning, disrespectful fashion.  Needless to say, I was angry.  Still am.  Bad enough I don't like my job....actually, scratch that, I loathe my job, but having to be treated unfairly is not something that anyone should have to deal with in the workplace - even if it is working remote.  And then there is the part of them docking my pay because of the issue.

One of the things I have observed is that I'm happiest when I am working for myself or when I am doing good things for others.  My day job leaves me feeling empty and well, feeling icky.  My "ME" job makes me feel happy and accomplished.  One of my favorite quotes is a Hasidic saying that goes: "Everyone should carefully observe which way his heart draws him, and then choose that way with all his strength".  My heart is moving me to make a major move and leave my job.  My heart also tells me that the Universe will toss me a safety net to keep me from falling flat on my face.  Lots to think about.  The future is wide open and good things are there for the taking.  I just need to do it!!

Smiling,
~V