Such Is Life

Life is full of ups and downs, we all know this and we all expect them.  I am generally a happy person and try to look on the positive side of things.  For me, on most days, the glass is half full.  But when things are bad, they are bad.  When I am down, I put on my big girl panties, move along with my life and try not to dwell.  But sometimes it's hard not to keep some of that negative inside.  You know what I am talking about - no matter how hard you try, it seems that one just can't get past whatever the roadblock is.  It's frustrating and maddening. 

One of the "dumps" I am in is my job.  I hate my job.  Hate is not a word I use lightly and I hate very few things in life but my job definitely falls into the "hate" category.  That is the only thing I have to complain about in my life but it is such a major deal that it's hard to overlook.  It sucks every bit of energy out of me because I have to put on a phony persona in order to do my job.  It's difficult to wake up every morning and fake enthusiasm.  It's draining.  I do find solace in the things that I love.  Those things carry me through and help me to not go off the deep end.  But there are days when i feel like I am teetering on the edge of the cliff.  Most days I wish I could just quit but I'm a responsible adult and know that isn't practical.  But what I wouldn't give to walk into work with my letter of resignation in hand, give it to the manager and say adios.  I am trying to locate employment elsewhere so I am not at a standstill but we have all seen the news reports - times are tough and jobs are hard to find.  But I am trying to get out of this situation.  It's not easy though.  And it is wearing me down. 

I am trying to focus on the "ups" in my life.  I have a wonderful family and fabulous friends who lend so much support.  I am beyond grateful to have them in my life.  It makes all the difference in the world.  I know that things will change and I am trying to be patient but my patience is wearing thin.  

But in the meantime, does anyone know of any places that are hiring right now?

Smiling on the inside,
V ~